Rabu, 17 November 2010

Poet - No Choice

Choices,
People said life is all about it.
B-u-l-l-s-h-i-t
I never had mine

Hopes,
No, not I
Why?
I don’t have choices,
What’s the use of hope?

Just like day and night
No choices, they always change turns
But unlike theirs
My night will never change bright

So don’t face me and say you’re right
Since you never ask about my right

Minggu, 14 November 2010

Day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from

Hey "I",

I'm sorry I drifted away from you, I really enjoy our chat and jokes together, I think we could be a really good friends, so I'm afraid you got the wrong idea about that, that's why I drifted away from you. I don't wanna hurt your feelings but then I know I still hurt you too. Just so you know... I didn't mean it.
It such a waste to end up our contact like it, but since I'm a plain coward, I think this would be the best. Once again, I'm sorry.

Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you

(D*mn! i forgot to post this on 13th)

Dear XXX. first i just want to ask you are you still mad at me? I admit what I've done to you in the past is indeed embarrassing and I already felt ashamed of it for a very long time. But what I can give as an excuse is that I was young, I mean we were so young and I don't have a nice personality to be brag about and so do you.
Well of course what I did to you is purely because I'm irritated of you attitude and behavior, I don't want to say I'm sorry because I know I'm not regretting anything but I hope somehow you will pass this thing and don't grudge on me. Still, after all its your choice and whatever it is I hope you wouldn't hold grudge, coz its bad for your health...

Jumat, 12 November 2010

Day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Hmm, I have hate some people in some certain amount of time, but there is no one I hate most like I hate myself. I caused myself a lot of pain, and that makes me hate myself. In some point of time I've living with hating myself and the world around me. Why I must be this way? How could I be so stupid? Why people just can't understand? and many other questions mark.
But then, after time passes by I learn to love myself and receive my poorness. I think if I can't take care of myself, then who will? it saved me. And now I find my world is easier to live with and I have received many care and love from people around me.


Stevannie

Kamis, 11 November 2010

Day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to

Uummm, I think I already mention my late grandma and grandpa, soo...

I would like to met primordial creature, you know like seeing ancient creatures, meeting them and how do they react when see me wearing such a nice leather jacket and ray-ban sunglasses. And I will show them iphone 4G and wonder what will they do. hahahah. Or I want to meet dinosaur (not T-rex) and see how they react when I bring komodo dragon with me. LOL~ (oops, dinosaurs is not a 'person')

Well I can't think of any other person, maybe some heroes and my ancestors and when I met them I would like to ask many questions and give them some hints for the future, hahahaha..... maybe if they do something different then there will be some change here too.

Rabu, 10 November 2010

Day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

What is this stupid topic?? I don't feel such things. If I don't talk much to someone then it means I really don't want to talk with them. That's it, the end. LOL~

Selasa, 09 November 2010

Poet - Vision

Dunia itu indah
Meski tak pernah kulihat bumi yang kupijak.
Tak pernah kulihat hijau daun yang lebat,
Tak pernah kusaksikan pelangi melukis angkasa
Tak pernah kulihat benda di angkasa;
            Matahari, bulan dan bintang
Tak pernah kutatap wajah orang yang kucinta
Tak pernah kukenali apa itu ekspresi atau gestur

Meskipun tak pernah kutatap dunia,
Aku menikmati setiap hentakan pasti di kakiku;
            Membuatku merasa nyata
Menyukai lelucon yang tak kumengerti;
            Karena tertawa itu menakjubkan
            Tiap orang tertawa dengan cara berbeda
            Tetapi tetap sama, tetap gembira
Menyanyikan lagu yang kusuka;
            Karena tak dibutuhkan mata untuk bernyanyi
            Karena hatiku bisa bernyanyi
Tersenyum kepada orang yang kucinta;
            Tak perlu kuminta balasan karena suara senyuman mereka ada disana
            Tak perlu kubertanya karena sentuhan mereka mengatakan segalanya

Mungkin aku tak tahu apa warna langit dan laut
Dan mengapa mereka berkata bahwa warnanya sama
Mungkin aku tak mengerti apa warna tanah dan pohon
            Tetapi aku mengenal mereka.
Aku tahu langit bisa mengamuk dan menghangatkan diriku
Aku tahu suara marahnya yang disebut halilintar
Aku mengenal bau tanah yang dilembabkan hujan
Aku mengenal bisikan laut dan parfum garamnya
Aku mengenal bau pohon yang kuat,sejuk dan tentram
Aku mengingat sentuhan dedaunan yang disapu angin
Aku menyukai bau matahari yang menyengat rambut,
            Meninggalkan wangi yang akrab dan hangat

Aku tidak tahu apa itu hijau, biru ataupun cokelat,
Tetapi aku tahu langit, laut, tanah dan pohon itu indah.
Aku tidak tahu apa itu cantik atau jelek,
Tetapi aku tahu apa itu cinta.

Cinta itu buta.

Day 9 - Someone I WIsh I Could Meet

Dear Grandma, and Grandpa,(RIP)

I wish I could have met you even just for once and felt the feeling of annoying spoiled grandchild, haha. I can't cry when attending my friends grandmother/father funeral, coz I'm not happened to experience it, it's kinda rude maybe but I'm just trying to be honest here.
I wonder if both of you have ever think about your grandchildren before you passed away, If you have, then be relieved, all of your grandchildren is in good health, and happy and we have an attitude too. :D so don't worry about us. I believed even we haven't met before that you are a good person because you give me a good parents. Well that's all. Actually I wish I could meet my idol but when I think more deeply, seriously,... I would drop the chance on meeting Nichkhun 2pm if I can meet both of you.

With love,
Your granddaughter

Senin, 08 November 2010

Day 8 - Favorite Internet Friend

Hmmm, my favoritte internet friend is all my friend on facebook, hahahahaha... and also my bro and sis in abroad. Well, I know I can always send SMS to my friend but doing it on facebook is more interesting, i dunno why? LOL~
I don't have anything else to say.
(Man, day by day I'm getting short with words, whad happened??) :D

Minggu, 07 November 2010

Sabtu, 06 November 2010

Day 6 - Stranger

Dear stranger,

I wonder how are you right now where do you work, and how do you live your life and are you still remember me cause I do. Well, it's not like I miss you or something. You just be in my mind for a while because I never met such a very nice stranger  before. I still remember we first met at your college and I'm still a senior high school students.
College is something new for my eyes that day and I'm all alone with my only teacher and you were there, suddenly accompanied us to guide us along the way.
and you even send us go, call the taxi, and other nice things you do. You know? I think the world would be a better place if there are many people like you.

Stevannie

Jumat, 05 November 2010

Day 5 - My Dreams

I have a LOT of dreams, not to mention daydreaming, hehehehe. When I was a kid I want to be a doctor, then an animal doctor, after that I've dream to be an actreess, singer, and many kinds of girls dream but there's one time when I want to be a gangster. LOL coz its kinda cool. well, kids...what do you expect?

For now I think my dream is to graduate from college, PR majoring. And then finding a job with good salary and also finding my soul-mate (my God! the last one is the hardest!). I really wish I could be a good writer or artist but since I'm too mediocre. A dream it's just a dream... hehe

It also happen once when I dream to be an athlete, like basketball, football, badminton, something like that. But I'm sucks at physical exercise. When I think about it, I tend to dream about something  that I couldn't possibly actualize it. Weird =,=

I mean how can I be a doctor when I hate math and physics, how can I be gangster when I can't ride bike... something like that. Well, I did hope some of my wishes came true. And my BIGGEST dream is 'may all beings be happy' ^^

Kamis, 04 November 2010

Poet - I'm Dead


Dark,
Dark,
Is all I see…
I try to come out from this pit darkness
But there is no door here
Then I imagine home and I suddenly there
As fast as changing channel on TV

I see my mother making breakfast
I smile and greet her, but she pretend not to hear
I shrugged and went to school as usual and skipping breakfast
I don’t know how I get there, ‘whooosh’ and I’m in the classroom
It’s empty, I wonder where everybody go
I heard familiar faint siren from the opened window
I see crowd in the distance and went there instantly, again
I start thinking that this is getting so much fun
I can do teleporting

There’s a black motorcycle crushed across the road
Parked not far from it there’s a big garbage truck with a dent bumper
Poor guy, the bike is total mess; I wonder what the body looks like

I approach the crowd
Finding the guy with the bad luck,
Blood is all over the hot asphalt
I can’t decide the color of his shirt stained by the blood
When I saw his face, I frowned
Man, this guy looks familiar…I think

Then there’s a cry behind me
I turned. It’s my Mom, she run through the crowd
She kneeled and cries, groaning her son’s name

It was me, that dead body of his is mine
I mean, I was him
I figured it out.
My name is Richard, I’m eighteen and I’m dead.

Day 4 - Siblings

Dear brothers,

I should say both you are the craziest person I've ever met and I'm glad I can be a part of your craziness... it's kinda contagious so... hehe. Even in the past you guys bully me so much I know you still care about me, when I was a kid I used to argue with you, lot of arguing but also lot of fun. Thank you so much for your love and care.
And never forget that we share the same bad habit together, and with the three of us together, it becomes perfect! you know the bad habit I'm talkin' about right? we are so cruel on mocking people, humiliating and making someone cry just with our words. I like the fact that we are still close to each other until now and I hope so for the future. I'm sure you guys will be a success people coz despite of your craziness you still have will and the strength to make your dream come true. Be patient and the road will appear before you.

Love,
Your lil' sis (which grow bigger now)

Rabu, 03 November 2010

Day 3 - Letter to Parents

Dear beloved parents,

If there's a reason for me to live, then it's for both of you...to make you proud of me. I still want to say thanks really lot to you even though i know a thank you isn't enough to repay my debt to you.
You always be beside me no matter what the weather is, you thought me lesson of life and never tired scolding me for my mistakes and doesn't hate me for whatever my weaknesses is. You always tell me how to be a good person and a good friend. well, you are one of my best friends too.
Actually I can write many many things about your kindness, your love and your patient to me until I run out of words but I just want you to know that I love you. Please forgive my mistakes, my bad mood, and whenever I make you annoyed, and thank you for always nurturing me in sickness and in health, for your endless sacrifice while raising me until now. I hope in the future i will make you happy and proud.

Love you,
Your boyish daughter

Selasa, 02 November 2010

She Was Thirteen and She Was Mute

I know a girl, she was thirteen and she was mute.
            The parents are so out of their mind and dump this girl from their lives, because she can’t call them “Mom” and “Dad”. No one ever introduced her as their daughter, so she hides from the world. No one can imagine the pain of resentment she felt, when she see her brother and sister smile, laugh and told a joke in the living room with her being invincible.  That night, she was ten. No teardrop in her parents’ funeral.

            School, is one place she hate almost like home. She dislikes memorizing names, what is the purpose? She can’t call anyone. Her friends, well, other students think she is a perfect toy sent by God for them. What are more satisfying than bullied a person who can’t scream, shout, and cursing? She was eight, she dropped school.

            She doesn’t believe God, She hardly even believed anyone in this world, so how come she believed somebody she doesn’t know, and never be seen. People said that God compassionate, merciful and he created human on his own image. She laughs so hard, if God is compassionate and merciful, she won’t be here, silent and people think she’s dumb too. If he created human by his image, then she wonder how he preach the gospel, and how he can even tell anyone his own name? if He is mute. Even if God is real, she rejects the idea of her life being under control of one mighty being. No, her life is already messed up, she doesn’t need God to say ‘this is your destiny, this is my test’. Hell, if her life is already this bad at least she knows that this life is her to own. She doesn’t need any more interfere.

            When she heard her favorite song, her heart sings without her mouth. She is sick of this world, sick of these people. She thinks ‘I don’t want this, I never want this, I want to speak my minds, I want to scream, I want to curse too, and I just need to say something’
She was thirteen and she was mute; she died with a knife dipped in her throat. She hopes of a voice when cutting her throat, nothing but blood comes out.

Day 2 - Crush

I really don't know what to write... =,=
The last time I had a crush is in senior high school, and now I don't know what happen but i just don't find anyone I liked to be with. Well. I have to mention here that I'm a bit conservative.
So, dear future Crush (which i haven't met now :) )...

I hope in the future I will met you, and i hope you'll like me too. I hope you're not a fugitive, not too crazy, have a healthy body & mind, and have a great sense of humor ^^

Love,
Stevannie

Senin, 01 November 2010

Change

People change
For better or worse

Sometimes I wanna turn back the time
To correct my stupidity
To complement some imperfect words
To do something that I would do now

And I want to forget some certain memories
Like how I forget where I put my glasses
Or like how I forget what day is it now
And better, like I forget math formula
But the trace just gone deeper

Damn, I just hate human brain, so advanced.
Wait, wait. I mean just a little hate
I still love having brain

Day 1 - Letter to best friend

Dear best friends,
I would like to say thanks a lot to all of you, my childhood friend to elementary school, junior and senior high school and now when I'm entering college. You just make my school life so much fun! We bang out the school together, cheats together, play together and on the exam we help each other, hahahaha.
It's nice to know that I always having you guys in my back, trust me and like me for the who I am. You never questions my mood swing and bear it (even times when i act so annoying). In my rough times, happy times, I always have you guys at the backgrounds. For me having friends like you is just the best i could ever ask in life. So once again, thank you.

Love you,
         Stevannie