She Was Thirteen and She Was Mute

I know a girl, she was thirteen and she was mute.

            The parents are so out of their mind and dump this girl from their lives, because she can’t call them “Mom” and “Dad”. No one ever introduced her as their daughter, so she hides from the world. No one can imagine the pain of resentment she felt, when she see her brother and sister smile, laugh and told a joke in the living room with her being invincible.  That night, she was ten. No teardrop in her parents’ funeral.

            School, is one place she hate almost like home. She dislikes memorizing names, what is the purpose? She can’t call anyone. Her friends, well, other students think she is a perfect toy sent by God for them. What are more satisfying than bullied a person who can’t scream, shout, and cursing? She was eight, she dropped school.

            She doesn’t believe God, She hardly even believed anyone in this world, so how come she believed somebody she doesn’t know, and never be seen. People said that God compassionate, merciful and he created human on his own image. She laughs so hard, if God is compassionate and merciful, she won’t be here, silent and people think she’s dumb too. If he created human by his image, then she wonder how he preach the gospel, and how he can even tell anyone his own name? if He is mute. Even if God is real, she rejects the idea of her life being under control of one mighty being. No, her life is already messed up, she doesn’t need God to say ‘this is your destiny, this is my test’. Hell, if her life is already this bad at least she knows that this life is her to own. She doesn’t need any more interfere.

            When she heard her favorite song, her heart sings without her mouth. She is sick of this world, sick of these people. She thinks ‘I don’t want this, I never want this, I want to speak my minds, I want to scream, I want to curse too, and I just need to say something’

She was thirteen and she was mute; she died with a knife dipped in her throat. She hopes of a voice when cutting her throat, nothing but blood comes out.